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01:05 - June 12th 2023

damn. it's my birthday, huh!!

My birthday being in the middle of year is so cool, in a way... it's like... I'm longing for it for a while, but also it makes me realize half of the year just went by.

What did i accomplish? Well.. Last year, I was very miserable, I guess! So you can say that I definitely improved in that regard. I also improved in art, a lot! And I feel happy. so Happy.

Last year, I got myself an iPad so I could draw on procreate. I still remember that drawing, and how it sucked, haha!!! It was Prof Turo. My pencil even has "Turo" written on it because he was so much in my brain!!!

I ended up not even finishing Violet because I didn't really like the game, and I didn't really like Turo in the end because of how he treated his kid, but life goes on!

I'm just so happy that, looking back at 2022, I can definitely say I've improved, both my skills and ways of thinking.

I just feel so, so happy.

After all, the dreams I'm chasing are closer! I'm getting closer to what I want to do!

As a pre-birthday thing (sort-of. It was just a good coincidence lol) I went to watch Across the Spider-Verse. So cool. both visually and lore wise, everything is SO perfect and so good!!!!

20 years... Such a special time, huh! It's much more special than my 18's. One thing that feels odd, is that the next milestone is 30...

Right now, becoming older does not scare me, but it sure does feel like at this pace, I'm not going to do the things I want. My body's going to get tired if I don't do anything about it!!!

So; maybe I'll just go dance and put in my all. For myself!

I'll make my dreams and the dreams of my friends become real. If I can. Just you wait!!!

I feel like a kid during my birthday, honestly. I boot up any game I can to see if they celebrate my birthday. I can trust granblue with that. I only login for Reinhardtzar, events with old men and my birthday. ah, forgot to check on Soriz and Eugen. Will go do that!!!!

Any game I can make decisions on will have a special Birthday celebration for the player. Why? Well. It's not much, but even just saying "Happy Birthday, Player!" does a lot to someone's special day. Even to someone that might have tons of people around wishing their birthday!

I booted GROWING STARS and realized that, well.. it's the last birthday I'll spend with it. I don't remember that being the case last year; but Teru called me and said he wanted to be the first one to tell me, as soon as midnight struck so he called me super late! I realized that this was just the normal message you'd get, but since I booted the game around midnight, it was extra special. I love you so much, teru!!!!!!!!!

Maybe messages change depending on how many years you played? Well. I'll never know for sure. Thank you for everything, Saisuta.

Well. I'll go dance, and I'll make another entry this night if I remember to! Kinda feel like talking more.