who's the guy that is putting too much work on his plate, voluntarily? That's me!
So if you read my May 6th entry you might remember me saying
"I do have to make a 5-page comic with a full illustration. so. fuck. but i'll just draw the characters a lot lol"
yeah um about those "5 pages". They've turned into 16. I already managed to do 10 pages today; but those are only the sketches. I'm ABSOLUTELY only going to do them in B&W; but I've decided to reward myself if I finish it in time.
AKA I just want a reason to buy ASTERIAN but only After I finish my homework to avoid completely Dying of Rushing This Project. Technically speaking it's only an assignment and it's quite whatever; but I kinda want to finish it so I can show how much I've improved from the first assignment.
I think I'm doing alright; even though some of the panels are Very un-creative and I kinda dislike it a lot; especially since I'm not making use of the background too much. I'm mostly drawing the characters and calling it a day; but...
It's just that I can't exactly go up to the teacher and say "I didn't have enough time :(" When I had an entire month... but still; an entire month to do a 16-panel comic is way too ambitious... And like I said, the assingment said only 5 pages; so I'm putting more work onto myself, willingly.
That ambition will kill me one day, I know it.
The assignment being centered around a party, by the way. Where you have to show what happens.
So my first thought was someone that was alone but um...It's overdone and not something that I want to represent so much.
The other one was about someone learning about Saisuta's Shutdown, the protagonist being a self-insert in a way, as they're a system; Where they'd have a talk about why they even feel so sad about it, when there's really no reason to be sad. After all, it's all fictional; yet the pain is so real.
I decided against it because I don't need I needed the pain of having to word my feelings properly, having to draw a storyboard for it, and essentially turn my pain into entertainment.
I can't do much more than this. I just hope tomorrow's stream will be good, else I think I'll be completely unmotivated. Please, PLEASE, Bandai Namco. Please don't let this stream simply be damage control.
You've already broken me enough times; I don't need to have a meltdown in front of my friends again :(
so yeah. I'll be working towards that.
I also have to work on a UTAU Collab with others which I'm going to be doing the art for. I'm a little bit scared of screwing everything up but I have to have more faith; else I'll never be good enough for 11CG!! I want to do good things that make me happy~