cool Ring Fit Adventure session!
I'm entering sort of like... an artblock era of sorts. It's not really artblock because I can still draw, but I believe seeing so much art from others in my class made me a bit jealous... Not in an excessive way, rather in a "damn, I would love to draw like that."
That's why I'm trying to train on other styles but I still doubt myself too much. Feels like I won't ever get it right, even though that's wrong! I've started to train on Another Code/Hotel Dusk's artstyle because I love it so goddamn much. I'm trying my best to understand it, and why it's working.
It taught me a lot about facial proportions, and how to structure it better, and I feel like I should go back to the basics. I will go back and read the books i bought about anatomy as well.
But yeah. I get stylized styles but it is true that my style might just, not work out like I want it to. If you read this and you like it, don't hesitate to speak out about it. I'll still keep doing things in that style sometimes probably but I don't know. I felt like I was on top of the world (personally) for a while
and it all just, crashed down yesterday. I spent the entire day sketching things, drawing things in another way and that was super pleasing.
I said 2024 was the year I was going to discover many things, but I think it has already started.
You see, I strive for others to look at what I do and be happy. But if I can't draw things and be fully happy about them (Like the Gaius piece, which I completed so I knew I'd be fully over with that style and have something to compare with whatever I'll be doing in the future), then how can others feel joy?
I said I'd be opening commissions soon but, each time I get closer to opening them, I think "I can be better than this and make sure I can give something that people will actually enjoy." man...
I will still try to make that Teru PV for his birthday, like I said I would. I know what I want to do, but I'm not sure I can execute it like I envision it with my current skills. I'm grateful my school still believes in me that I'm still there, because I can tell I'm not the strongest soldier! But I'll improve.
They said their whole motto is no competition, don't compare yourself to others, and i literally failed that on day1.... I'll get up and do things that make me proud like it used to!!!
Thank you for reading. And, um, don't worry too much about all this, alright? I absolutely will get over this. Like I always have. I almost stopped art at some point, thinking I'd always suck, but it's just that I don't get everything. And it's alright, no one does on the first try. even if I have become quite good in a style, it's just not the one I envision forever keeping.
I am extremely jealous of people who can do some insane rendering, and it's something i want to do as well! Shadows and everything, it's a part of the process I absolutely *LOVE* doing, and you might've noticed! And I even changed the way I do it recently, which surely has impacted the way I see my art because I feel like I can do better.
Made a tweet about it weeks ago, but I just don't use blending modes as much as I used to, but I should also just switch to grayscale. I might try it out next!
And if you draw, you absolutely should experiment with your art every now and then!! It's what will make you better, and make you think "Oh! Maybe I could bring the way this artist does shadows/eyes/proportions/etc in my art from now on!
I feel like... A good way to start drawing would be to study other pieces, if you don't feel like doing realism first. Why?
Because they can give you a good sense of how proportions work, of why artists place eyes there, or why they shape mouths like that... Yknow! that sort of thing. Okay, I'm going back to training and then working out!
I was feeling devastated when I started writing this entry but... I've got a sudden motivation boost, yknow! Like a... "Right, this is just something that happens. It might feel super bad, but it's normal." feeling.
Again, thank you so so much for reading and checking out my diary entries every so often.
I know a few friends of mine wonder what I'm up to sometimes because I jump one group to another without giving much updates, but I hope this helps clear up that I'm always up to something!!